Inner inhibition

Whether you call it sixth sense, second nature or intuitive. It is a talent you are either born with or not.

People always like to "claim" they can see things before they have even happened.....uuum yeah go smoke that green stuff again. Look you know if you have it or not when you dont always have to feel the need to talk about it.

This has happened to me countless times and I will admit it freaks me out a little. Also when I am talking to people I can analyze their situation and let them know how they actually feel before they even realise it. Through my social circle (work colleagues, friends, acquaintences and family) I have learnt I have a real skill. And the reason I am writing this is because it is something I really want to pursue.

Anyway for all you people out there that are trying to still find your real passion-this is mainly for you. This has been a constant goal of mine since I was little to try and find what I am good at and that I really enjoy doing. Through countless opportunities (some good/some bad) this has finally become apparent to me. And my passion lies in a handful of things and my next task is finding a way to combine it all.

All I can say is try not to become the next tadpole in the sea. I think everyone is born with a purpose and you fall into the rat race and very rarely get out. Always stay true to who you are and dont live everyday just to survive. Dont be afraid to speak out and to take risk. People often think you are setting yourself up for failure by letting others judge you but I actually see it as you are setting yourself up for failure if you don't try.

I tend to always look at life on the funny side, It helps me get through my day by being quirky and the class clown. Honestly I am clumsy, have "blonde" moments all the time, talk to myself like a third person and generally just laugh at everything. People often think there is something wrong with me. I love to dance, so I'm always doing some kind of jiggy movement. I have a funny laugh (which I have been told is contageous) and have been teased about it by friends. (I think they just jealous that I laugh like goofy.....NAAAAT)



So I am so consumed in being the "funny guy" that I often have very low days, as who is making me laugh if I'm not? That is the problem I think. I mean being funny and positive is hard work....LOL! No really it is when people become reliant on you being the funny one and when you have your down days its almost as if something terrible has happened like a death. If I am having a down day, I literally get asked about 100 times if I'm ok. And yes I am, I am human. Just cause I always appear to be "happy" does not mean I don't have sad emotions. Often people like me when "depressed" take things more seriously cause you have such high emotion. (No I'm not bipolar)

Back to the point, what I am trying to say is always look at the funny side of life. Don't look at the glass as half empty. I wish people could see through my eyes for just a day. Its like a comedy show the way I look at things.

Yes maybe I am slightly mad and I don't mind that. I am the one that is going to trip down the stairs, I am the one that is going to jump at a shadow cause I think its an insect, I am the one that you are going to catch doing some random dance that I am singing in my head, I am also the one that is going to fall off a treadmill and I am the one that is going to have a lame comeback to everything (ok they not always lame) but yes I have been told I am "cheeky in that way. Cheeky? Isn't that when a 5 year old says something out of line to their parent?

OK to end off, "Love Laugh Live"

Don't take everything seriously

Learn to shrug things off and lastly.......

Life glorious Life

Don't you hate those people who write "I love life" or "life is so good to me" or "I am in love with life" I certainly used to hate those people and get even more angry when I saw these status updates. Then I started wondering why so many other people feel this way and not me. I started reevalutaing my life and what was happening that I didn't feel like this. Confronting your demons is not always fun and people often choose to just live with these demons in the hopes that it will just go away.

One by one I started to change certain things about my life in order to make it better for me. Firstly its your thought patterns and what you put out. Being construstive and not being negative is a major step forward as it is so easy to complain....as most people do. Instead embrace all lifes challenges and what you going to learn from it.

Secondly and probably one of the more difficult challenges is to look at the people that surrouind your everyday life and cut out the negative one's. Sometimes you have to let go of the one's closest to you and sometimes you have to pull in the one's that you have neglected. It's emotional yet rewarding when you find the balance of the friendships that you want. Like I said in my previous post it doesn't matter how long someone has been your friend.

Thirdly, you have to learn to love yourself. And I don't mean in a conceited way. When I was told this, I thought to myself "but I do love myself. No in fact I didn't. If I hated my life then of course I was portraying a negative outlook and then natuarally that means I didn't love myself. You have to really soul search and work on the things that you dont like about yourself and improve and the things you do like about yourself you must try utilise more often.

Lastly, a healthy body is a healthy mind. I always thought I could get away without exercising and thats because physically I could but not mentally. Since I have started exercising and put so much focus on it, the feeling you get from it and having it unleashed it so powerful. With that comes belief and power in something higher or not. I'm not trying to say that I've become all religious but just having that feeling makes you appreciate life's little joys and subtleties.

Outside Influences

Why do people have a way of making someone feel really shit? I think its their own insecurities.....if you are a self confident individual that believes in yourself and the way you live (treat others the way you want to be treated) then you will be fine to live and carry on your life without ever feeling guilty about anything. I think a true friend is someone that can admit when they have done wrong but also had the ability to tell you when you have messed up in a constructive way.

People always want to take the things they have done wrong and turn it around in a way to make you feel bad where they are actually just feeling really crap by the way they have treated you. I have learnt to honour the friendships where it is a mutual beneficial relationship. Think about it, it is a relationship that constantly needs to be worked on. You cant call someone a true friend that is never there for you during the hard times. It those times that make your true friends stand out. And vice versa.....you need to take your pride out the way sometimes and know when the time calls for you to be by your friend.

If you get out what you put in then it makes the friendship worth it. A friend is not only someone that you can have a good party with. There are tons of those kinds of people around and they can come and go just as quick. A friendship is also not measured by the length of time you have known someone, these things can just blossom from nowhere and a new friendship can feel just as good as when you meet a partner that you have a connection with.

Trust is important, without that you dont have anything. You also need to know when to take the good and the bad. If its only benefitting one party then its not worth it. If you feel more drained when you with that person then its time to call it quits. This is hard when growing up and you seem to grow near and far between different people but its often the curveballs that life throws you that makes you need and experience different people at different times. As long as you happy within yourself and you can honestly say that you would want to be friends with you then that is a positive outlook. Love yourself and dont be afraid to, you came onto the earth on your own and you will leave the earth on your own. The people around you are not always going to be there. You cannot live your life living vicariously through other people, you have to also know how to deal with things on your own. People are there just for you to vent and make you feel better and possibly find a solution but they cannot change circumstances that have been thrown at you.

Trust yourself, listen to your inner being and learn to love yourself.

View from the top

People always have their own perceptions and ideas. I like my views of the world, i can convince myself to believe something (which is not always good) but in my head is my own little world. I am an extremely perceptive person and I often feel like my mind and body talks to me which I dont always listen to. I know many people can probably relate to that but I often have "out of body experiences" where something happens and I'm telling myself I told you so.....(not so cool)

SO I am trying to listen to myself more and by surrounding yourself around people more like that is amazing. I am a very insightful person and I am so good at being able to let others see this. But yet find it difficult to do it to myself. I love making people aware of their surroundings and what lies in front of them. And making them realise or learn things that they havent "seen" before.

People generally always want things to be good/great/fantastic but they cant sit in the lonely/bad time and reflect on the good. Things that happen that make u burst with radiance, that little smile u get on your face and you wonder why. That feeling of excitement in your body for no apparent reason. But just that you have that good feeling inside you which radiates around you. Even though we spend so much time working to survive and get that nice big house and car, its the smaller things like the light in a persons eyes, or that bubbly ditzy laugh you get that makes the little things in life more worth it.

Why must we always think we have to act a certain way or do a certain thing a certain way to get recognition. The most influential people in the world have been people that have not been the most normal of people. Think Lady Gaga, Da Vinci, Beethoven, Einstein, Elvis Presley, Marilyn Manson, Michael Jackson to name a few. These peoples legacy will always live on, and for what besides for the talent they possess. But because they were different and an inspiration to others and thats what I believe is how people should live....

We are all 3 year old children...

Don't you ever just wish you could go back to the days when nothing in the world worried you and the thing that made you cry was because you couldn't get that doll you wanted or you couldn't go play with your friend after school. I certainly do and the more I spend time with a 3 year old the more I sink into her little world and "forget" about life's rise n falls.

We tend to forget the beauty in our world with the constant hustle and bustle of traffic, money, deadlines, friends and family. When you are 3, you notice the tiny grain of sand on the beach, the pretty shell that comes floating across in the water, the crack in the rock, the icy chill of the water, the splash of the wave on your feet. You feel your most happy when you are living in an imaginary world of princesses and noble men. I at 25 also feel most happy when I am in this world of a 3 year old. It makes you appreciate life more, makes you aware that we are constantly worried and stressed in this world we live and that no one is ever really happy.

I think the most beautiful gift on earth is the naivety of a child. They come onto earth to explore and learn as they go along and the influences they experience along the way is what makes them who they are. I sometimes wish I could go back to being a child, maybe born to a different family or country and see how different things would be. What person would I become? Are we born the person we are or do things like family, culture, country you born or friends influence us. We are all innocent human beings when we are born and I wish that adults had that innocence about them sometimes.

Don't be a varsity drop out

So I have been thinking about this for a while. I find it strange how people generally have the perception that you go to schol for 12 years, then you must study to get a degree and then you must slave away for the next 45 years in an averge job that you spend 75% of your life at working for a pig-headed boss and earn menial money. Of course I am only generalising but this seems to be the case in over 70% of the population.

You get the lucky few that have done their travelling straight after high school, they study and then mommy & daddy finance their new company that they have come up with...!

But if you are not one if these lucky few, things are a little different and hence the title of this blog and my opening paragraph.

I often ask, why am I here? Is it to slave away the rest of my life in an average job so that I can have a nice house, nice car and decent lifestyle one day. Well to an extent, yes! But is it so wrong to want to travel for however long? Being finished varsity now and not being able to get that "ideal" job with that "massive" paycheck? People like to paint a story of what your life will be like when you grow up and I am finding out very quickly that its not at all what I thought it would be!

So I say go explore...Where you can find out who you really are without all the comfort zones around you and become more successful in your own right...! You may decide that you want to sell bananas' in Thailand for the rest of your life living in an average house but having a far more than average lifestyle! You can hop from country to country experiencing different cultures, climates and way of life..! You are a tiny speck on this gigantic planet and most people don't ever leave there tiny bubble of home ever! Why would you want to be 70 years old and admit that you have never even been out of your own country (like my grandparents)

I say explore.....your parents aren't always right. And you will be far more of an inspiration when you come back home one day doing what you love.